Being that there are a few kits, in a few scales being released soon of this model, I thought I might accumulate a few screen captures off the internet for paint reference for all to utilize. There are a few shots.. from FatHead… to new concept art, and of course the screen caps.
My first weigh-in was 412.2 . One week later, the day we began the food change, I weighed in at 413.8 Lbs. It is this number, my highest, that I am determining how much weight I have lost. The program goes with the first weigh-in, which again was one week before the actual food change.
The program is definitely working… I feel the difference in my daily activities. I found this week I have not been tired like usual… other than yesterday. I was really dragging by the afternoon, and found myself craving food by about 4PM. Will that ever go away? I hope so. There have been a few times that this first 16 weeks has seemed like a prison sentence, then I remembered they at least get stale bologna sandwiches….. which I would gladly eat today. Then again…. I would be only cheating myself if I did. My wife continues to support me when I begin having these thoughts. I have noticed, however, with my heightened sense of any food around me, that she no longer is drinking the meal replacements with me. She only was doing so once per day, if that, and now I don’t see her doing so at all. Maybe it is just me. It would be interesting to see what life would be like if we both were on this program… and if we would be able to succeed. I am extremely happy that my legs are small again. I had worried that the elephant size of my legs were not going to go away. I am relieved. My legs, however, still need great attention. The skin is in recovery mode…. very dry and loose. The blackness under the skin is from the blood in my legs…. and I hope that goes away sooner than later. It looks awful. We will all press on! Let us see what the weigh-in today shows!
3930 Steps for 1.83 Miles and 3152 Calories burned. 10 Floors Climbed.
8 hour 10 min. Asleep last night, Awake X1, Restless X 21
10AM – Vanilla Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Chocolate Shake
2PM – 1 Cinnamon Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Vanilla Shake
6PM 1 packet Chicken Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Vanilla Shake with 12oz Diet Orange Soda blended with 24oz of shaved ice (Not Bad. Like 50/50 bar)
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
Walk Across America….we are The Stargazers
Today, my legs continue to improve as I move more, taking larger strides as I walk. I am very near to walking my neighborhood once again in the morning. I may call an old training buddy of mine from my body building days. Maybe we can actually shape this body into something after all!
3495 Steps for 1.63 Miles and 3211 Calories burned. 5 Floors Climbed.
6 hour 20 min. Asleep last night, Awake X1, Restless X 2
10AM – Chocolate Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Vanilla Shake
2PM – 1 Peppermint Cocoa Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Chocolate Shake
6PM 1 packet Tomato Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
7PM 24oz Diet Orange Soda over 24oz of ice.
8PM – Vanilla Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
I was hoping to grab many more, but time has been challenging lately. Hopefully I will get back to this soon. These are mostly from the Bonus Blu-Ray Disc. I thought everyone would like to view the different pilot helmets, and early digital versions of the T-70. Enjoy!!
Kurt Kuhn
Kuhn Global
Modeler’s Miniatures & Magic
I have come to respect that staying busy throughout my day is a great way to keep my mind from wandering to food. I went swimming again today, and I am pretty sore muscle wise. I guess I haven’t used these muscles in some time.
4646 Steps for 2.16 Miles and 3354 Calories burned. 3 Floors Climbed.
7 hour 24 min. Asleep last night, Awake X6, Restless X21
10AM – Vanilla Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Chocolate Shake
2PM – 1 Cinnamon Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Vanilla Shake
6PM 1 packet Chicken Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Chocolate Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
Here is the Week 2 update of the group’s Walk Across America challenge. I was changed last week from Team 3 to the Stargazers team!
I was able to attend my Daughter, Madison, singing recital yesterday afternoon! It was great to get out and about, and she did AMAZING.
My daughter Paige is having her 26th Birthday today, and we will be taking the family out to dinner in Celebration! So that I don’t encourage my addiction, I will not attend, and instead meet up after at their home for gifts. They did have Hungry Bear Cookies for everyone, as it is my daughter’s favorite, but I was able to resist, instead opting for a Coke Zero over ice. It was great! I removed my wraps this morning as well, revealing what looked to be very skinny, and black legs. They are definitely in need of attention. That stated, they are not swollen any longer, and I can actually SEE my ankles again! WOW!! I am also walking with more open stride now, finding myself getting everywhere more quickly that the past few years. I had forgotten what real walking was like! I was able to also swim today in our pool! It was great! I am on my way to better health… and life. The program works!
4950 Steps for 2.31 Miles and 3417 Calories burned. 3 Floors Climbed.
7 hour 24 min. Asleep last night, Awake X6, Restless X21
10AM – Chocolate Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Vanilla Shake
2PM – 1 Cinnamon Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Vanilla Shake
6PM 1 packet Tomato Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
7PM 12 oz Coke Zero over ice.
8PM – Chocolate Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
Yesterday evening was a great mental challenge for me. I wanted food very badly. I am wondering if this is some sort of withdrawal thing? I believe I actually thought about food so much that I believed I was hungry, even though it has been proven on this program already that with what I intake via this program does not leave me so. I think this may be a good thing. Like all addiction… this must happen to rid ourselves of what we allowed ourselves to become dependent on. It happened when I was ridding myself of street drugs in my past… so this is no different. Oh.. I forgot to mention… yes.. I am a drug addict, and as such I keep myself in check everyday… and have done so for more than a few decades now. This will be no different.
One very interesting aspect of this journey is how I am not thirsty. Just three weeks ago if you found me without a 32oz drink in my hand, there would have been something wrong with me. I was drinking a lot! Many will remind me that this is a sign of Diabetes. I agree, and have been tested over and over again…. I was not even pre-diabetic in all tests given to me. That stated… I am at a loss as to why I am not thirsty now. I take in liquid all day with the shake and soup I intake, and I drink at least 3 eight oz. glasses of water, each with fiber in them. Does that account for not being thirsty? Every time I go to get my water…. I have to almost force it down. Hmmmmm… I will inquire at this coming week’s meeting.
4647 Steps for 2.16 Miles and 3363 Calories burned. 2 Floors Climbed.
9 hour 17 min. Asleep last night, Awake X4, Restless X17
10AM – Vanilla Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Chocolate Shake
2PM – 1 Peppermint Cocoa Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Vanilla Shake
6PM 1 packet Chicken Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Chocolate Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
I am definitely having more issue with evening time with my ‘want’ of food. I hope that feeling goes away soon as when it hits, it takes all I have to remain steady. I wake in the morning full of energy, not hungry and looking forward to my day. I no longer drag myself from place to place… and I am not as winded as before. I forgot to mention that our group made team switches this last Thursday for the “walk across America” challenge we were given. You may view the progress posted a few days ago above this entry. I was on Team 3, and now I am part of the Stargazers. We shall CRUSH the competition! LOL… naaaa… it will be fun! I will be returning to my morning walks very soon…. possibly this coming week. One thing these FitBits do is calculate the floors climbed in one day. I am not sure how it is calculated as everything else it calculates is pretty much right on. However, I live in a two story house…. with 17 stairs. My office is upstairs, and the Kitchen is downstairs. Because I keep the food in the Kitchen, I force myself to go down and up those stairs for each meal… not including any other time. So when my FitBit calculates 1 floor… I am a bit puzzled as I have actually done 10 to 12 each day. My state of mind is pretty positive, yet I find myself looking forward to the day I can eat something again. That stated, I know now how valuable this program is, and I dare not waste it. It is my chance to gain my humanity back, and live to be with my family longer, and view all the wonderful things with them. Not to mention the great amount of Missionary work I may now accomplish in His great glory. This I am certain of.
I spoke to my friend again yesterday. He is in the same boat with me in my weight challenge, and his health is very bad. I have asked him again to look at this blog, and let him know I am here to help. Even so, I believe he is having trouble believing that HE can do it. He has two amazing boys that love food as well… and they are at that age where boys are ravenous in their growth…. so getting support from them in this is something I don’t believe he will receive from them. I state that even though I know they love him and wish him to succeed. They simply have no concept of his true issue, and don’t realize how important their involvement must be. He is a food addict like me. Addiction is difficult to deal with when everyone around you is doing what you are addicted to. If he could manage to do this with me for just one week…. he may be able to conquer it all on his own. I will call him again today.
It may read silly, but I have already begin planning my life, especially my diet that will remain in place for the rest of my life…. or until I am fed by another for whatever reason. My plan has actually two plans within it…. “Life Plan” and “Hardcore Plan”. My “Life Plan” includes meal replacement shakes throughout the day, as I plan to keep the intake every two hours as we have started in this program. Since I did this when I was younger in body building, I remember it’s great value in keeping the body burning calories. There may be one green salad for lunch, and one low calorie meal for dinner. There are prepared meals you can buy today that have a total of 250 calories. Then I plan on allowing for one extra special meal a week, that may indulge me from time to time. The trick there is to make sure it is only once a week. I will aim to give myself no more than 2000 to 2500 Calories per day (possibly with a burst on the indulge day to 3000). That, along with making sure I walk 5 miles per day…. and possibly weight training to keep fit. All of that will make sure that I am burning equal or more calories than I eat and drink. Needless to say I am ready to be fit again. That stated…. my fit weight is 200 pounds extremely lean. That, along with my muscles in any kind of larger than average size, due to my previous life, lean may be for me up to 225 pounds. So… I am placing a cap on my weight to be 230 pounds. Should I hit, or near that number each day, I will begin my “Hardcore Plan” of this exact program we are on now, until I am at that reasonable weight once again. Of course this may change as we still have 26 weeks left of the 30… or if I continue in the 72 week program…. well.. we shall see. In any case.. I plan to produce proper nutrition, and exercise until I can no longer do so. Hopefully the “Hardcore Plan” will be very rare. Never-the-less, I shall keep myself in check as I do now.
2506 Steps for 1.17 Miles and 3046 Calories burned. 3 Floors Climbed.
8 hour 1 min. Asleep last night, Awake X1, Restless X17
10AM – Chocolate Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Vanilla Shake
2PM – 1 Cinnamon Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Chocolate Shake
6PM 1 packet Tomato Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Vanilla Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
I awakened today with great energy! I feel my time to start walking is very near, if not here already. I actually want to exercise! This is a feeling I had lost quite a while ago with lethargy, and lack of hope. I stand amazed at the miracle of what is happening. Something I must state as well…. the group of people going through this program, (including the Program Staff, Nurses and Doctors), are all amazing… and VERY supportive of each other! I believe this group was placed together for this reason…. and we are going through this great life change together for great purpose… perhaps to help others to know that it can be done. These people are great… and I know we will be life-long friends even after the program has completed. I wish I would have taken a photo of the group when we began. I believe we may have lost a few participants already, as there have been 1 or 2 empty seats. I will ask if I may take a group photo in this next meeting and weigh-in.
OH! Look at the photo below…. my legs as I woke this morning look almost normal!! Aside from the wraps, you definitely can see the difference in size. Just to let you know how large my left lower leg had gotten, take out a ruler. That is right…. the full ruler of 12 inches. Now measure that diameter into a circle, and there you have how large and round my leg was. I had feared it was not going to return to normal. Now I know I should have had more faith that I am on the path that will fix most of me.
2282 Steps for 1.06 Miles and 2990 Calories burned. 1 Floors Climbed.
8 hour 12 min. Asleep last night, Awake X2, Restless X15
10AM – Vanilla Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Chocolate Shake
2PM – 1 Peppermint Cocoa Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Vanilla Shake
6PM 1 packet Chicken Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Chocolate Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
My first weigh-in was 412.2 . One week later, the day we began the food change, I weighed in at 413.8 Lbs. It is this number, my highest, that I am determining how much weight I have lost. The program goes with the first weigh-in, which again was one week before the actual food change.
I have been taking sleeping aids…. and I have been getting better sleep than I have in years! My body doesn’t hurt as much anymore as I lay in a single position for a time, and I think I am even breathing better! I cannot wait for this evening’s weigh-in. I may have too high of expectation though. The bottom line is that I am feeling much better, moving better, and my legs have gone down in their swelling dramatically… as you can view in my “today” photos below. I have typed earlier in this journey that I have been having issues with wanting food lately. I have found that it is the evening time that I am greatly challenged with that issue, and I am lucky enough to have my wife to remind me to stay the course. My wife is amazing, and I am blessed with her. She took our zone Sister Missionaries out to lunch a few days ago, telling me later that she was feeling guilty for going without me. I let her know that it is better at this time that I don’t throw temptation in the mix just yet, as I am getting used to not eating foods… especially like the pizza they had that day. As I type this I find myself daydreaming of that pizza…. not good. It is obvious I will need to stay away from foods for a while longer until my mind is strong enough to handle it. I cannot believe I addicted myself to foods. It is unreal to me.. yet real. One of my team mates in this program is a young woman (a writer), and she told us last week that she was behind a closed door in her home, folding laundry. Her husband ordered a pizza, then went into the room she was in to eat it. She is a strong willed woman and was able to say to him.. “bring it on!”. For her, having food in front of her is making her stronger… which is great! I look forward to that day when I am able to be that strong. My wife came home yesterday and she had taken our granddaughter out to lunch at Wendy’s, the went and got Yogurt afterwards. I saw the remaining nuggets sitting on the counter that my Granddaughter didn’t eat… and I must admit… and felt jealousy just for a brief moment. Very strange to feel that about food. Of course I type this as part of my own journey… that others may identify if possible, and know they are not alone. I felt badly for having such a feeling… as nobody should have to curb, or even hide their own food intake just for me. Again I feel lucky that my wife would do such a thing for me. In my survival of this, I want to make up with her, and my family those lost years of activities that my being overweight stopped from happening. Anyway… enough sappiness. LOL.
Below are my photo from this morning, followed by photos of the items I speak about in my zero calorie intake from time to time.
Here is the Waldon Farms Honey BBQ Sauce and Chocolate Topping I have been using from time to time for taste, which has been satisfying me greatly.
Here are the zero calorie diet sodas I have chosen to keep on hand. I really don’t have these much. The diet Lemon Lime actually has a lower sodium content that the rest.
Behind them is the zero calorie snow cone syrup that I tried once as of yet. I also purchased Orange Cream, Root Beer, and Tigers Blood gallon zero calorie syrups to use.
The Equate Fiber is what my wife purchased for me before the program began. It tastes like drinking gritty orange liquid, and is working well for me.
The notes on my food boxes are a great daily reminder that I am not the only one in this journey… and boost my strength every time I grab from them.
I had mentioned earlier in my journal that my wife went and purchased some shake meal replacements in order to join me once in a while. Once this program is compete, being that these are nearly the same calorie count, and I am told quite good by my wife, I may stay on this liquid dietary living, replacing a few of my daily meals with one of these.
She purchased these from Sam’s Club.
4329 Steps for 2.01 Miles and 3355 Calories burned. 9 Floors Climbed.
8 hour 14min. Asleep last night, Awake X2, Restless X21
10AM – Chocolate Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Vanilla Shake
2PM – 1 Cinnamon Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Chocolate Shake
6PM 1 packet Tomato Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Vanilla Shake
Calorie Intake for the day = 970
